Gaze

One look, and I gazed,
That feeling has left me so dazed,
I'm amazed At the profundity
Of that thought, the serenity
Of that compassionate gaze is fraught
With stardust in those very bones
Of a bloody battle hard fought,
Is there no more peace
In that gaze, a friendship lost,
But I am still dazed.

I knew not we were trapped in a maze
Going round and round in a haze,
The golden Sun in your hair,
But my well-fought battle lost -- unfair,
So many words I meant to speak,
As I run over them now all I've tweaked,
Into the deep, dark silence of your gaze,
The shining, but sullied of a lost case,
A negative paradigm of a friendship gone cold,
But I'm still amazed by your dazed gaze.

Apologies

I am sorry you misconstrued,
Beat my ego down to pulp,
But those salty tears now falling hard
I hold back and down I gulp.

I am sorry there was little time
To dance to songs and sing to rhymes,
But that divine order I find cryptic,
What's in store is shy, mystic.

It hides from me, but it gives me signs,
A feeling and a pause sublime,
I know I shouldn't push and pull,
But what if of inertia I am full?

I said Sorry, yet I don't know if,
What is willed will or won't,
But what's a given is that I will give
My utmost, my very most.

I rise like a bird into the sky,
With the wind in my hair
And the sun in my eyes,
Onto the long road so fair.

And I take you under my wing, don't I?
I said Sorry, right, didn't I?
I patched it like tweed, didn't I?
Will I be forgiven, won't I?