Dear Journal,
I kept the alarm for 7.30 but woke up a little before 8.15. I don't remember my dream from the morning.
My student was here by 8.30 but he came up around 8.45. He makes mistakes while speaking. I took his class till 10 am.
Then I had a cigarette. The wd meeting was amazing! The experiences were astounding, proving that whatever you pray for gets answered.
Priyasha is doing so well in her play performance according to her Status update. I am so happy for her! She has got amazing reviews.
There has been a mild feeling of emptiness related to Arun. I wish we had never broken up but I think my mental health was too much for him to handle. Also the relationship is unacceptable to Ma and Pa and to society. It's 4.33 pm exactly right now.
Then we went for Gaatha's annaprashana. She touched a pen! She is so so so cute! She has her mother's apple cheeks and those beautiful tiny eyes! She is so beautiful!
I didn't really have much to say to anybody through the ceremony and kept to myself. I've had about 8 cigarettes so far.
A little before 3 I caught a rickshaw and left from there and came home to a smooth cup of tea and then a dazzling cup of coffee. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO QUIT SMOKING.
Instead of clicking pictures Pa clicked small one-second videos of the WD meeting.
There was golda chingdi for lunch! I didn't eat too much. I met Shomjukta mashi's mom who said I'm so tall.
I also took a peek into Ma's diary. Her diary is filled with me.
Is it alright that I still love Arun so very much? It's exactly 4.44 pm.
Ma loves me so much even though she has a taciturn and stern way of exhibiting it. I love my parents.
On my way back I received messages from TejAuradkar about tomorrow's classes. She has asked me to deal with the student's writing assignments tomorrow. When it comes to Literature I get intimidated with teaching but writing I can definitely teach!
I'm getting a mild acidity attack at the moment. All the golda chingdi seems to be coming out of my throat!
DeJh sent me messages saying I'm one of his favorite people. I find his affections annoying actually because I don't think I'll ever reciprocate them. He is so clobby and short! He is inordinately kind!
Now I'll do my evening Gongyo and Daimoku and then prepare for tomorrow's lecture.
I'm wearing my long black dress. It's exactly 4.55 pm at the moment.
A little effort goes a long way! I'm happy that I got to spend time with so many lovely people today!
I am feeling:
Happy
Heart filled with love
Pretty (Ma says my skin has become bad. I think I'll purchase Glutathione today!)
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
I am grateful for food, shelter and money.
I am grateful for my students and all the people I work with.
I am grateful for friends and family.
Love,
Me.
5.00 pm
