Lovely eyes

Lovely eyes, oh where are you?

Gazing at me out of the blue.

You see me for all my love

Guided deftly by a hand above.

I miss you sorely, I miss you true

And on you I lay kisses to sooth.

I love you infinitely because you are so soft

And so tender looking like a dove.

I love you lovely eyes with all my heart

And let's together a love story start

And make it golden, make it wise

And pull me out of all my strife.

My lovely eyes, smelling so good,

Cute and loving as you should.

I love you sorely, I love you dearly

And I dont want you to feel so surly.

You are cutest, sweetest, kindest yet

And so loving even though I bet

That you are the loveliest eyes

Created by God, adding spice

To all you love.

Letter to God 10.41 am on 8.9 2026 my dearest

My dearest God,

I may use the word dearest to address others but you are truly my dearest.

Dear God, firstly let Arun be happy to receive my birthday wish and keep his presence in my life. I dont want to lose him.

Secondly, let me and all my friends and family have a blessed day.

Wherever Arun is travelling let him have a splendid day.

God Ive kind of surrendered to your will. Whatever you want. Just dont let me suffer anymore. Dont let me feel more pain.

Give me what is good for me and do make me wealthy.

I dont really have so many demands from you except that give me the best possible outcome in any circumstance.

I love you God. You truly are praiseworthy. Ive felt your presence in crucial moments of my life. Dont let me be so lonely. Let many women friends flood my life.

Let me be happy oh God, my sweetest God.

And at some point make Arun call me up.

Love,

Me.

10 50 am

Journal 10.11 am on 8.9.2026 it's Arun's birthday tomorrow

Dear Journal,

I dont quite remember my dream. I remember keeping time though in my dream.

I hope to have a fantastic day.

Last night I ordered food. I wont waste money. I wont order again.

I am feeling:

Eyes are paining

Happy

Lonely

I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace, blessings and mercy on my life. 

Love,

Me.

10.14 pm

Ps: I have to meet DiPan in about 2 hours

Journal 11.48 pm on 7.9.2026 I dont need to overdo it

Dear Journal,

I had a wonderful day. But there is a schoolteacher that Metamorph is considering. I hope I'm not replaced.

I enjoyed myself thoroughly with my students today. I love these children.

And again I thought I should really let Arun go. I should give him what he wants. But I cant stop thinking about him. Ill wish him tomorrow around this time.

I wish him a spectacular birthday wherever he is.

I dont have to force myself to stop thinking about Arun. That is where my struggle is.

I am feeling:

A whole lot of love

Happy

I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace, blessings and mercy on my life. 

Love,

Me.

11.53 pm

Letter to God 1.21 pm on 7.9.2026 I surrender everything to your will

My dearest God, my benefactor,

Tejal just messaged that she will meet me today. Let this day go really well God.

I dont want to ask you anything. I surrender everything to your will. I just want you to ease this pain and suffering in my life.

And I want Arun's presence in my life. And I want love and happiness and prosperity so that I can give love and happiness to all those in my life.

Whatever you will will happen oh God! I really love you.

Please let this pain and suffering go away Oh God! Please...

And let me have a beautiful day...

I love you!

Let there be dignity and respect in my life.

And let Arun's life be fine. Let him enjoy his birthday tremendously.

And let Ma, Pa and Buro and Sadhya be happy in life and happy with me.

Please oh dearest God make this pain and suffering go away. Relieve me of suffering. Ive suffered a lot. Let Ma be more gracious with me. Make her treat me with kindness and compassion.

I love you God. Whatever you will I will do. Whatever you want will happen in my life.

Give me your bountiful love, Grace, blessings and Mercy in abundance in life.

Make my life prosperous.

I so love you Oh God, my greatest benefactor!

Give me happiness oh God!

And yes God! Let me work with Simit Bhagat and let him not want a romantic relationship with me.

Also God! Could you make men not run after me? Only Arun.

Let this day go really well for me and everyone in my life!

Love,

BURI.

1.30 pm

Blues

You know the blues have hit me,

They have hit me so strong

Under her threats and viciousness,

Yet I bid the blues So Long!

I am not one to give up,

Im not one to crumble under pressure 

And yet she tries to malign me

And tinker without measure.

I have no one right now

To call my own so low

And Id rather dance

Beneath the boughs

And know what I know.

We suffer more in our imaginations,

We suffer more than we can ration

And I imagine a time when the pain

Has receded to guarantee rainbows and rain.

And I cross this small river

Of trials and tribulations

On my own and that is how

I have won, love to bestow.

I wish you freedom from these blues,

That is why may be your brains I chewed

To create a distance so that you didnt need

Your spirit on pain to feed.

I hope your days are going wondrously well

And what lies ahead only time will tell;

You look so pretty that's the news

And joy over the blues I choose.

Letter to Arun 11.39 am on 7.9.2026 Things are tough

Dearest Arun,

Things are pretty tough for me. My mother is being quite vicious with me. I have a feeling it's over you because I added my dad to our call the other day by mistake.

I know no peace of mind because of my mother. Things have been like this all my life.

I really miss you. And I really love you. But there is a great distance between us.

What do you think about my mother? I feel like crying. I dont think my mother loves me.

Ill tell you what I love the most about you? I love your hands the absolute most. Your beautiful hurt hands. I want to kiss them and heal them of all the pressures and stresses they have felt all your life.

Have an amazing day ahead Babypie! Hope your days go really well. I love you.

Love,

Doel.

11.44 am