Dating Kali is exasperating. He makes me happy, I love him, he loves me -- that is why we are together.
Firstly, he is married and doesn't want to leave his wife who he loves.
Secondly, he sets such high benchmarks for me. I have to be prim and proper, good looking, beautiful, talented, and yesterday he said he would drop me like a hot brick if I am not good at my work.
Frankly, I just want a man to settle down with, let me be, dote on me and may be raise a child with me without putting so much stress and so much pressure on me.
Kali is very very difficult to be with. He is aggressive, angry, and keeps saying sleazy things.
Everything I write here seems to advise me to take it slow. I think I'll just sit with him till 10 or 11 today.
I need to take care of myself. He is demanding of me, very demanding of me and my time.
I want someone to love me for who I am, the inner me. I do feel I am a beautiful person on the inside. He appreciates that but wants me to be a perfect 10.
Should I message him? I need to let this out.
I've been feeling really stressed out over us.
Life is good. I've been procrastinating big time over the website project. I need to get that done. I haven't been sleeping enough or eating well. Arun is not easy to be with.
I am grateful for my life and its every experience.
Love,
Me
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