If anybody knows it is you how much I love my boyfriend. We've broken up and I'm very sad. Very very sad. I'm grieving. And I'm constantly picking tarot cards which are showing me that there is heartbreak.
I'll never be able to get past this and I'll never be able to love anybody else again.
He doesn't know what he has done to me.
For two days all I've done is send him messages.
I know he'll move on because the Tarot shows that. Why has there been such a tragedy in my life?
I miss his face, I want to smell his skin and look into his eyes and tell him that I'll always love him. I want to take his hands and kiss them.
May be this happened because it's his wife's ichinen, her intention. May be she was getting hurt with our relationship and I have been praying for her happiness. Arun told me a few times that it's important to accept the problem. And this is the problem that we've broken up and I'm still absolutely nuts, absolutely crazy about him. And the problem is that he's married and leaving his wife would be more painful than him leaving me. That is why may be it was God's plan that things stand this way.
I'll keep praying for him and his family.
I'll keep praying for his wife and children's happiness and I'll know that I wasn't party to breaking up his family. That would not have been good.
So now I accept this. This makes sense.
Love,
Me.
I am grateful for all the people and experiences in my life, especially for Arun and his beautiful family. May his wife enjoy good health and all the happiness in the world. And may he and his children enjoy good times.
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