I distinctly remember seeing a dream in the morning that SayDas was in my dream explaining to someone (mostly Krao) that something (may be cigarettes) is my coping mechanism.
I woke up in the morning and was all gung ho to quit cigarettes so I had a cola. I had five colas and eight cigarettes through the day.
I did not chant or do yoga in the morning in stead I meditated. I was feeling so restless.
Work was good. I stayed away from my phone and got quite a few leads.
However, AfShe was pretty itritable and said something like I dont know how to speak English. AfShe who cant write a single phrase in English properly! In the same breath he argued that I should think of teaching English at his institute and he asked me how much pay I would want. Stupid guy! I asked him to pay me my dues and he did and I told him I'm not coming back. I think it's good riddance.
I came home to Ma watching reels on her phone.
DeePan and AstAro came home and we chanted. BEore that GaMo and NimNa came home for Ma.
Deepan explained the spirit of contribution and how our Sgi magazine started.
All evening I felt a ringing in my ears as if I was about to start hallucinating. It left me feeling so disturbed!
AstAro asked me to challenge something in my prayers. After the whole meeting I want to chant more.
Now I think I'll take a bath and chant.
May I quit smoking cigarettes.
I am feeling:
Happy
Loving
Better after writing this entry. The ringing in my ears has stopped.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
Love,
Me.
9.58 pm
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