acceptance

I've never felt so misunderstood

In my life, to be told by someone 

You grew up with that you are

A pseudointellectual or to be

Called arrogant by your father

And where your mother doesn't

Want to talk to you; I perceive 

It as everyone being quite

Broken and alone and happy

That way. I've complained enough;

Right from school to now

All my prayers have been answered 

And my dreams have been realised

But my father out of fear has

Never let me grasp those

Opportunities; today I wonder

Is it truly out of fear or disdain? 

Out of a perception may be that

A woman should know her 

Position and maintain the

Status quo between genders;

Well, we talk about women's

Emancipation and freedom

But judging by my reality we

Are a long mark off it, that's

At least in my reality;

My self esteem is gone

I feel so lowly and not worthy

Of dreaming anymore 

Even though like I said

All my dreams have been

Realised except that

Dad doesn't like seeing

Me sitting on cloud 9.

That's my karma, that's my reality

And I accept it: does that make me

A loser? Well, I've rebelled enough

And seems like there's no other way out;

Because you can walk out on

Your husband and boyfriend

But you have to accept your dad

And your brother who hates you

And beats you up.