As me, AK Mahamana and Nir Pan sat and ate at Kake da Dhaba my heart broke into a million little pieces. I don't know why. I take things like this as a premonition of things to come.
AK Mahamana spoke to Ma for a long time. Ma tried to shakubuku him and that bugged me. I couldn't stop myself from admonishing Ma. I realised soon that I should have stopped myself.
May be that was the reason I was feeling so down and out.
I've become very quiet these days. I rarely speak up in social occasions. It bugs others and me too. I'm scared of revealing things popping up in my mind in the fear of rejection.
I think that there is no reason for me to feel dejected or rejected. I meet people because I want to meet them and they want to meet me.
Nir Pan showed me pictures of his mother and grandmother today. They are both so beautiful.
He himself was looking good today since he has been running.
I've completely stopped doing yoga, spending most of my time on the phone.
Yesterday, Kali classified himself and Mash as bad people. Why would people think that they are bad. It's the sinner mentality.
I am stuffed with food. I feel so bloated.
I have to be able to feel moneyed, creative and imaginative, and purposed.
My purpose: To serve humanity in love and kindness.
My creative will is expressed through painting, writing and kindness.
My money will come through independent endeavours.
Tomorrow I'll sit on the Swa website and register my scripts.
May be when I wake up and drink my lemon juice I can exercise a bit.
I hope to sleep well tonight.
Ma was so irritable when I came back home. I wonder why she gets so irritated.
I love my Bu.
Love,
Me.
I'm grateful for all the animals that are sacrificed to feed humanity.
I'm grateful for this beautiful wonderful mind, and this beautiful wonderful life.
I'm grateful for friends like AK Mahamana and Nir Pan.
I'm grateful for all my friends. Friends are treasures.
I'm grateful for Qud. She's a gem.
I'm grateful for money. It truly makes the world go around.
I'm grateful for love. It completes my life.
I'm grateful for my phone.
I'm grateful for my room.
I'm grateful for my home.
I'm grateful for trees and plants.
I'm grateful for water. It nourishes me.
I'm grateful for air.
I'm grateful for meditation.
I'm grateful for my job.
I'm grateful for tomorrow. It completes today.
I'm grateful for my beautiful vast life.
I'm grateful for yesterday.
I'm grateful for all my clothes and jewellery.
I don't think Kali should be taken seriously. He's smart in another way.
12.25 aml
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