Journal 20.6.2023 5.58 pm

 Dear Journal,

I have been feeling a little negative and lethargic lately. Last to last Sunday I slept for 17 hours straight.

I blame it on the heat.

A lot has been happening. (Not so much that I can fill this page.)

Ma is in Bheemtal with Mashi, Konu and Miso.

I hope to find a nice guy this year to spend time with.

Sah lih took me to Iskcon on Friday and treated me to vegetarian sushi.

I really love my parents. They are my Godsent gifts in this life. I truly have a wonderful family.

The work has been boring me a bit but I trudge on.

I don't know if marriage is on the cards for me.

Whatever it is I'm sure life is going to turn out to be rosy golden.

I'm looking forward to a job opportunity which is much like my Communicate India job.

I think I'll always take homoeopathy pills for my depression. It somehow keeps me going.

This morning I was feeling positively nauseous and washed out.

I went to get my blood pressure checked at a local doctor. My bp was 114 by 80.

I hope to end this day on a good note.

Love,

Me.

I am grateful for this job. It allowed me to take Pa out to Leaping Windows on Father's Day.

I am grateful for my parents. I love them to bits.

I am grateful for friends like Kali and Nir Pan and Sah lih.

I am grateful that I have friends despite slipping.

I am grateful that I realised I had cannabis oil, and that is why I had the last episode.

I am grateful for food.

I am grateful for my beautiful home.

I am grateful for Sadhya and Bu. They are family.

I am grateful for Melon. He is precious.

I am grateful for my future husband. I'm sure he is a rockstar.

I am grateful for this beautiful, wonderful life.

I am grateful for love.

I realised the other morning as I awoke from deep sleep that I actualise my reality through my thoughts. I really do.

I am grateful for the Tarot.

I am grateful for this beautiful Earth,

I am grateful for my existence. I feel like I'm ready to take on responsibility.

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