Thursday, 1 June 2023

Journal 1.6.2023 6.14 pm

 Dear Journal,

I don't know why, but when I need it the most these doctors like Dr Dhaw and Krao don't really positively encourage me. I guess a part of therapy is that the onus is on oneself. The doctor just has to recommend the pills. That's what it is! And that exasperates me!

I just spoke a ton of nonsense on my state of mind and the response was a mere "okay!"And the call was duly cut.

That means all I have to do is pop the pills.

I'm feeling a little anxious and panicky now. It could be because I popped all of Krao's pills last night. In fact, that is what it is because this is a side effect of the medication. Also, the blinding heat and humidity have a role to play.

There is simply no analysis by these doctors. Their analysis is based only on the intake of the pills.

I might start chucking Krao's pills again. I don't like this anxious, panicky feeling.

Why am I feeling anxious after talking to Krao?

It could be because I was and probably still am inherently against popping brain medication. It could and it probably is also a reaction from popping the allopathy pills. I haven't felt this way in a long time.

I hate the allopathy pills. They make you drowsy and make you feel this way.

Love,

Me.

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