Distraught

I am distraught, I am crying,
This too shall pass shall it not?
Is this what I did to you in the distant past,
That's why with malice my life is fraught?
Tears rolling down my vacant heart,
I know not who is mine, who is not,
Nothing I own belongs to me,
A loveless specimen of destiny,
Today I make this vow in your stead,
I'll be more than just a damsel who is well-bred,
I'll be a rising star in the night sky,
Not today may be, not tomorrow may be,
My time is nigh.
Rise I will above your dusty chidings,
Your holding me but never binding,
Most successful, most endearing,
Even you with kindness I will welcome.
Rise I will above your beatings,
And become more than a mere speck,
A shining planet, that rules me at my beck
And call, I will be all and more. Your thinking is wrong.