Irreparable mistake

I love you dearly and
I made a huge mistake,
Will you please forgive me now,
Of course with friends you can pics take.
I was depressed and lonely,
You may not know the feeling dear,
I'm feeling so sad and I want you near.
May all the work you have undertaken
Go astoundingly well,
I dont know if I'm more shaken
Or in love, only time will tell.
I wish I could convey
What a champ you are,
I see you getting an Oscar
And me very far.
I love you and I thank you
For all that you do and have done,
If this mistake is irreparable
I'd never forgive myself hun.
I'm not feeling too good these days,
And I wish I'd told you that,
Instead of doing the unthinkable,
I wish I hadn't held back.
Tears dont stop flowing now
Because you were the one
And you always are,
Please forgive despicable me,
Please know that I am sour.
I hope you will take care of yourself
And eat and sleep well each day,
If there's anything I can do to tell you I love you
Please convey it to me and I'll do as you say.