Dear Journal,
The first of my many embarrassments notwithstanding my posts on Facebook were the many messages I sent Q, abusing his girlfriend.
Then all my posts this year on Facebook against Bachi K. Then my love letters to Sam.
All springing from my spurious hallucinations and imaginations.
So the question I am faced with is imagination bad. Ever since I was a young child, I gave credit to myself for my imaginations. But now I think nothing is more fascinating than reality. It's far more difficult and challenging to face reality than get lost in your own fantasies.
The phantom of the mind can be rendered helpless by squarely facing our circumstances and our purpose.
To be honest with yourself is far more difficult a thing than fantasising although it may not appear to be so.
There has to be a healthy balance: A vision, a dream, goals balanced with facing reality.
There can be no doubt that sometimes I feel guilty as to my conduct, but surprisingly the spirit is optimistic. This too shall pass. I shall overcome. I shall stand atop the mountaintop victory flag in hand.
There are dreams I don't give voice to but within is the determination that I will realise them.
Love
Doel
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