Journal 25.10.2023 10.41 pm

Dear Journal,

I love Arun.

I sometimes feel anxious about our relationship and how it will be accepted.

I'm reading a book on developing eq. I really need it. Impulsive me almost broke up with him the other day.

He is down with high fever today. My hope is that he recovers fully and wakes up feeling fresh as a daisy.

I have to either get a job or generate a good income freelancing. I need to pen down my priorities and figure things out asap.

I have been practising automatic writing. It feels good.

Arun wanted a Mahishamardini painting painted by me. I'm on it. Should take me 5 days to finish it. My hope is that it's brilliant and that he loves it. I won't accept payment from him. I am grateful to paint this painting.

Tomorrow I have an audition to give. Keeping my fingers crossed. Will prepare well for it.

I've been chanting various chants and praying regularly.

I hope to be happily married to Arun.

I had a good day overall.

I worked on Shekhar's press release and emailed it to the press. Feel good. Hope he gets good coverage.

I also answered Qud's hr questions to help me plan my career. I don't know what her assessment will be.

I plan to send three books for Faizy through Amazon.com.

Sadhya gifted me a beautiful pair of silver earrings. I have to thank her and her mother. I am so happy Buo has found love and is getting married.

I am worried about how my relationship with Arun is accepted. No matter what I'm not letting him go. He makes me happy and I love our bond.

I think I'll go to bed now and dream sweet dreams.

Love,

Me.

I am grateful for Arun and the kids.

I am grateful for Ma and Pa and all that they do for us.

I am grateful for money and prosperity and safety and security.

I am grateful for health and happiness.

I am grateful for wealth, riches, fame and the comforts of life.

I am grateful for absolute love, devotion, peace and serenity. 

I am grateful for Sadhya and Melon.

I am grateful for my Buo Bacha. I hope he reaches a happy place in his life.

I am grateful for life and all living beings.

I am grateful for all my work across the three existences.

I am grateful for this Journal.

I am grateful for my bed and good sleep.

I am grateful for me.

I am grateful for all my ancestors.

I am grateful for Arun's parents.

I am grateful for love.

Good night!

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