Dear Journal,
I have had a good day so far... Ma is not yet back home and I contemplated purchasing Arundhati Roy's latest for A. Not now, later, me told myself and I will buy it for him.
Work was good.
My phone has gone in for repairs and I'll get it back only later at night. Essential expenditure is a must.
I am reading D Ikeda's Unlocking the Mysteries of Birth and Death and thought of dedicating a journal post to the issue of my own death.
Firstly, death is inevitable. It is immenent on all. So we might as well make our peace with it.
Energy can neither be created nor destroyed and thus our emotions, our karma, our very soul must go on. According to the Buddhist Law of the Transmigration of the Soul our appearances may vary, ranging across genders, species, forms. I wish to be reborn as a rich woman's lapdog in my next life. Then life will be good ;p
Jokes apart getting on to the next point, I thought a lot about the nature of my death. I really want to die peacefully after having lived a full life. I would love to just pass on peacefully in my sleep regret-free, knowing that I did as much as I could for all, rich, independent, in love, hopefully, and after having lived a rich, fulfilling life marked with the greatest of experiences.
Since I am going to die and could die any day, any moment it would be only fitting for me to live each moment as an emissary of Shakyamuni Buddha. Each moment I seek to reflect the ideals of compassion, courage, wisdom and love.
I've taken some ultrafoolish steps in my life. They are too embarrassing to recount. Some day when I'm old may be I'll laugh about them to my friends and Buro's children. I hope to live more courageously and wisely and with a lot of laughter and love.
I hope to forgive and I hope I am forgiven for my missteps. I hope to dole out hope in abundance and to give freely. I hope to be discerning and I hope to be wealthy.
I hope to do for others and live a life of service and joy and utmost love and compassion.
(Someone just called...)
More importantly, since death is impending and I believe in reincarnation I must not burn bridges or rub people wrongly.
Even though life goes on, we have just one life to account for because our past lives are forgotten. So I hope to do the most in this life. Life is good. Melon is just back from his walk and is licking my foot... the joy of it all....
Now, this post wasn't that macabre, eh?
Love,
Me.
6.47 pm
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