Sunday, 15 December 2024

Journal 15.12.2024 5.26 pm Hamida Cat Lady

Dear Journal,
I first started talking to Hamida Cat Lady during the lockdown when she asked me for some money to feed all the cats in the area. Her hair has lice, her clothes are dirty and torn and she is very aggressive. People call her crazy.
When I first met her everybody from Sunil to Chohanji told me that Hamida Cat Lady used to have a serious boyfriend till two years ago. He used to drive her around in his Mercedes but then he left her and she never recovered and has gone mad.
One day, Hamida Cat Lady asked me to buy her a Sting and I did. And she opened up to me and told me about her ex-boyfriend. She told me that he pursued her a lot and wanted to marry her but then he hurt her and today he is dead to her. I asked her where she gets money to feed all the cats and she said she works in real estate.
Nobody would be able to tell that Hamida Cat Lady cruised in a Mercedes just till some time ago.
I am feeling so lost. I've just realised that Arun has actually left me. For all his chants about being responsible he is most irresponsible. He's hurt me a lot.
I am feeling so lost, I am feeling so sad and so forlorn. I'm scared of living like Hamida Cat Lady and I hope God is kind to me and showers all his Love, Grace and Blessings on me.
I don't want to become like Hamida Cat Lady. Bhalla has constantly been telling me for the past few days that I'm looking very sad and lost and that I can talk to him. I must be looking sad.
I am so grateful for neighbours like Bhalla and Hamida Cat Lady.
Misfortune comes from ones mouth and good fortune comes from ones heart. I wish I can get over my grief and my sorrow.
And I hope God grants me the full force of His kindness and benevolence.
I am feeling:
Heartbroken
Sad
Realistic
Shattered
Grief
Love
Forgiving
Understanding
Love,
Me.
5.39 pm

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