I had a cryptic pleasant dream before waking up. Now I don't remember the dream.
I am extremely worried about Arun. Extremely is an understatement. I wish he was not so disturbed yesterday.
He is not likely to message me or call me up, I know that. I know him very well.
Whatever the reasons may be he doesn't want to get back together and I just wish he was more pleasant yesterday. But of course love means accepting the person you love through his highs and lows.
Forgetting Arun and moving on is just not a possibility. It's not even in my scheme of things. I can't imagine it at all.
I wish I could talk to him. I wish I could make him feel better. I wish he would just give me a chance to do so.
Seeing him yesterday shows me how I must take care of my own mind.
And I wish Arun's mind dwelled more on pleasantness. I wish he had fewer thoughts of violence. I haven't chanted in two weeks but I'll do so now.
I'll sit and attend my classes today.
I love love love my Arun. I really really do.
I send him all my love and I wish to see the light of hope glimmering in him.
Love,
Me.
8.59 am
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