I haven't done my yoga homework. I've placed everything for tomorrow. Why do I procrastinate so much? I always have. I must get into my mind and understand this.
Tonight I lost my temper with Ma when I was trying to explain something personal to her about how I need more responsibilities. I do pray to God for more responsibilities.
I called Arun half an hour ago but he didn't pick up my call. Why does he do this?
This got me anxious. He is anyway always on my mind. He was very excited about his meeting today. I know that since he chose to ignore my call he must be having a great time.
I just get better sleep if I speak to him for some time.
I must let go of all my negative emotions which are anxiety, laziness, guilt, shame, procrastination.
I must cultivate my positive emotions which are love, hope, happiness, gratitude, forgiveness, compassion and kindness.
I have a feeling that Arun could be doing coke with his friends today.
I do trust him. I mean I know he will never let me down.
I do sometimes feel a wee bit insecure with him. He is accomplished, charming, handsome, flirtatious. That's one way of looking at it.
It's these very qualities that attract me to him.
I really hope he meets me soon and that we have a great date.
I hope he thinks about me as he sleeps.
May I charm him in his dreams if not on the phone before i sleep.
I am grateful for Pushpaji's wonderful lecture on vrittis today.
I am grateful that Ma and Pa are hale and hearty.
I am grateful for Arun and that he is having a good time today.
I am grateful that I ate healthy meals today.
I am grateful that I got rickshaws easily today.
I am grateful that today I focused on my goals in my thoughts.
I am grateful that Dheerajji approved of my flow today and lauded me.
I am grateful that my heart is full of love.
I am grateful for yoga class.
I am grateful that yoga has entered my life in a big way.
I am grateful that I love Arun deeply, commitedly and devotionally.
I am grateful that the day has been so good.
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