Journal 13.3.2024 9.32 pm

Dear Journal,

Yoga class is going so well. I am so happy to do it. I should listen to Ma more often.

I also have to do a brilliant job with my novel.

Today we had a session on Yoga Sutras where there was an allusion to the Bhagavad Gita. What I learnt from today's reading was that politics is the way of life and that when going in to fight it out one must assess one's risks. Death is certain for everyone so there is no point in giving up the fight. It is important to give protection and be compassionate, but it is also important to kill the demons when they arise: that according to the Bhagavad Gita is what Krishna teaches.

What you read has such an influence on you.

After reading these passages my mind goes to my relationship with Arun. He says there is no future, and i know it's bound to hurt a lot of people. Ma and Pa would be so devastated if they knew I love a married man who will never marry me. The only thing keeping me in this relationship is my love for Arun. I do love him a lot. He is such a cute person. These are the risks.

This reminds me of the Bhagavad Gita where Bhishma and Dronacarya explain that they are supporting the Kauravas because of their wealth.

Where am I going? What am I doing? Should I believe in words and promises.

I just spoke to Arun and we discussed the above points in the Bhagavad Gita on the phone. Arun said if you want to win you can't focus on your enemy's strengths. You have to focus on your own strengths. I love him. He is such a cute person.

I agree with him. Of course Duryodhana was preparing for battle by assessing the Pandava clan.

I have hope. I have love. And I have happiness.

I know I will get some good freelance writing projects. I have God's grace and His infinite blessings. Patience is paramount.

Now I'll do my Yoga class homework.

Love,

Me.

I'm grateful that I woke up after a vivid dream. I love dreams.

I am grateful for Ma, Pa and Chotto and Sadhya.

I am grateful for Arun.

I am grateful for all my teachers and all my students.

I am grateful for all my friends.

I am grateful for love and happiness.

I am grateful for wealth.

I am grateful for yoga.

I am grateful for work.

I am grateful for God's infinite blessings.

I am grateful for all the meals I ate today.

I am grateful for hope and optimism. 

I am grateful for my body, mind and spirit.

I am grateful for my heart.

I am grateful for the good night's rest that is awaiting me.

I am grateful for my education.

I am grateful that I have been forgiven.