Journal 8.3.2024 8.22 pm

Dear Journal,

Another vital day has gone by and what did I do?

I did my pranayama, meditation, smoked tons of cigarettes and spent some time with Nagesh.

I've hurt a lot of people and lost a lot of friends in turn.

I applied to a few remote jobs, read a little, but I did not work on my novel.

I live a very comfortable life.

Due to my mental health I know I'm perceived as inadequate.

I've been meditating on love and taking care of my skin.

Kali says that he is never leaving his wife and he wants me in his life. How is that going to work? I really do love him.

I must stop smoking. I must.

I love Buro.

Yesterday Kali and me were sitting in Quarter Deck when Pa walked up to me and said Hi. He was there with Kirit uncle. I hope Pa is not very disappointed. He looked disappointed.

I know some good remote writing opportunity is going to work out very soon. How soon? I'm being very patient. I'm praying each day.

I know I am going to be super successful, rich and famous. But how?

I'm so grateful that Kali is still in my life despite my nervous breakdown. What triggers my breakdown?

I really do love Arun a lot. I see him as a whole soft and tough person. He is such a cute humanbeing. How long is the road ahead?

I hope to have a productive day tomorrow.

I'm supposed to watch The Broken Mirror with Ashwin tomorrow.

I really want my life to turn around and I want to be floating in money.

I hope I see good dreams tonight.

I saw my tooth being pulled out by me in a dream last night and a talking animal in the water. I'll Google that now.

Love,

Me.

I'm grateful for my wonderful life.

I'm grateful for my parents.

I'm grateful for Buro and Sadhya.

I'm grateful for all my friends and relatives.

I'm grateful for all the opportunities coming my way.

I'm grateful for my novel.

I'm grateful that I'm healthy.

I'm grateful that I have Arun.

I'm grateful for all my experiences.

I'm grateful that I forgive.

I'm grateful for God's bountiful blessings on my life.

I'm grateful for my home.

I'm grateful for my meals.

I'm grateful for my clothes.

I'm grateful for work.

I'm grateful for my beauty.

I'm grateful for my heart.

I'm grateful for my mind.

I'm grateful for my phone and laptop.

I'm grateful for books.

I'm grateful for my hands and feet.

I'm grateful for money.

I'm grateful for Nature.

I'm grateful for Melon.

I'm grateful for my beautiful destiny that is unfolding.

I'm grateful for my bed.

I'm grateful for a good night's sleep with sweet dreams.