Journal 23.3.2024 9.37 pm

Dear Journal,

I was super eager to get my mmpi test results from Nidhi today. So in the morning I did my pranayama and nothing else.

My test wasn't bad she said when I finally met her after a brief chat with Dr Rao.

I am a perfectionist. I can be hard on myself. I get angry and my guilt is short-lived. I have unusual thinking patterns. I'm highly intelligent. I am full of love, she said. A very mentally involved person. A nice person. So and so forth. As she explained the results to me.

She has also asked me to message her each day on the progress I'm making on the work front.

She asked me to get 15 minutes of cardio every day. "Walk up and down the stairs."

I did that twice. I also walked from Matruchchaya to Seven Bungalows.

I also spoke to Arun briefly. He says he's feeling better and will meet me tomorrow.

Ma and Pa went to meet Deepak Kaku who has Als. 

I'm so grateful to life, the Universe and God that Ma and Pa are hale and hearty.

I hope to get married. I hope that happens for me.

Today I applied for freelance jobs and started reading the book The fault in our Stars. It's about a girl who has cancer. Really nice.

With just 24 hours in a day where is the time to watch anything on ott?

My career needs rekindling. I need focus, concentration and dedication. With 5 hour of yoga class there is little time for anything else.

The day has been good.

Melon is home and Pa is watching the ipl.

Meditating on love works wonders.

In the last message, Nidhi said "Hold yourself to the highest standards but be most compassionate towards yourself." Those are powerful words. Be kindest to yourself.

I love my mother. She's a rock. She's a Rockstar.

I'm grateful for Ma Pa Buro and Sadhya.

I'm grateful for Nidhi.

I'm grateful for Arun.

I'm grateful for my beautiful home.

I'm grateful for Yoga class.

I'm grateful for all my teachers and all my students.

I'm grateful for my heart, mind and body.

I'm grateful for my beautiful body and soul.

I'm grateful for my intelligence.

I'm grateful for the money I have.

I'm grateful for books.

I'm grateful that I'm feeling happy and positive right now.

I'm grateful for all my eternal friends.

I'm grateful for the food I eat.

I'm grateful for love and life.

I'm grateful for Dimma Dadu and Thama.

I'm grateful that I sleep well tonight.

Love,

Me.

9.55 pm