Yesterday Arun and I had a huge fight. He told me that he broke up with me because he thinks I have a mental health problem. He kept saying that he doesn't love me anymore. And I was furious and I walked out of qd.
I think I should stop loving him too.
Besides he's such a liar. He lies through his nose. I don't think I need someone I can't trust in my life.
He called me up and he ended the conversation on a good note. But I sent him many messages saying I don't love him anymore. I don't. I shouldn't.
He doesn't believe in me. But the truth is I know I'll always love him.
I don't think I should talk to him or meet him if I want to get over him. Time will do its thing.
He's such a cute person.
For the greater part of the evening I just sat there, a great distance from him. And then I hugged him and cried as he lied to me. I do love him. I love him so deeply. But I think I need to distance myself from him.
This is going to be painful, getting over Arun.
My baby he is. My sweetest heart. My favourite person in the whole wide world.
I don't think it's possible to stop loving him at all.
At the moment I am distraught and shedding many many tears.
I am feeling all teary.
I am feeling sad.
I am feeling hurt.
I am feeling my heart expands with love for Arun.
I am feeling determined to stop talking to him and really make that attempt to get over him.
I am feeling eager to face the day.
I am now going to sit and chant and pray for Arun.
Love,
Me.
8.54 am
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