I woke up in the morning feeling sultry and morose and was missing Arun a lot.
I met Debo and spent some quality time with her. Then after lunch Sanjay Nirupam's right hand man S Jayswal called and asked to meet. We met at Third Wave and spoke about work, life and other matters like making money.
A Ghosh called and asked me to write songs in English for him. He mailed me the brief and I have to get back to him with a pitch.
All in all a fruitful day. Hope to do an exemplary job with the outcome of today's meetings.
Excited about the songwriting.
I missed Arun. He is always on my mind. But I've made peace with the fact that he doesn't want to be with me.
I think I'll move on.
I've been rude to him, asked him for money, which I should not have and given him a lot of stress. (A Ghosh just called.) I don't know if Arun will ever talk to me or meet me ever again. Whatever it is, I won't bother him.
Anyway, I'll get to work on AGhosh's songs now. Things are moving in my life now. I'm also in a state of mind to accept change right now.
Life is good and the love is real.
Love,
Me.
8.47 pm
It hurts to know that there will be no more dates with Arun. He doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't even want to be friends.
I won't call him or message him.
While working on the song I'm remembering all the times spent with Arun. The date at Bandstand was so awesome. I really love him a lot. There will be these moments of missing. And I can't force him to love me. He was the world's best boyfriend-- so caring, so affectionate, so emotional, such a cute sweet and good humanbeing. I hope to God that he is grateful for the good times shared.
Love,
Me.
I am grateful for all the people who grace my life and all of life's experiences.
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