Tuesday, 10 September 2024

Journal 10.9.2024 1.07 pm

Dear Journal,
The day has been haywire. I haven't had a spot of sleep, haven't bathed and haven't got leads till now.
Arun must have checked his messages and he must be really hurt. I'm hurt I hurt him. I don't think I'm very mature when it comes to handling relationships.
I'll always love this sweetheart of a man. He must think I'm crazy. I must be crazy.
I hope he forgives me. May be he was in Nagpur but the whole thing sounded like a lie. And may be I'm wrong to not trust him. He doesn't need a stupid girlfriend like me.
His cute face delights me.
His eyes light up my heart.
His voice melts me.
It's been ages since I've heard the phone ring with his call. He may have been busy. But not one call? I don't know. I must be very wrong in my approach to this relationship.
I love my Arun. I always will. And I sincerely hope I get leads today.
Also, I hope to make my sweet families life much better.
Please Arun forgive me. And know that there may be a million Candies and others but no one will love you the way Doel does. So devotedly. It hurts.
Love,
Me
I am grateful for Arun.
I am grateful for Ma baba buro and Sadhya.
I am grateful for life's experiences.
I hope Arun fights it out with me or is he so hurt? I'm a stupid stupid girl. Very stupid girl.

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