Arun hasn't been online since 7.30 pm. I'm sure he has found someone else. I should really let him go.
He doesn't check my messages and he hasn't called and spoken to me in two months.
Next time I'll choose a better guy. And I'll definitely never date a married man ever again.
Why do relationships fail?
And why did I choose to fall in love with a man who told me right at the outset that he doesn't believe in loyalty?
Why did I fall in love with him like that?
I met S Kum and some other actors today.
Being an actor is a real struggle. It's important to enjoy the process and go with the flow.
I hope to have a much better day tomorrow than I did today.
Arun said he will meet me on Monday. I'll sit with him for an hour over lemon soda and hear what he has to say and clarify things.
I think our relationship is probably over.
I'll miss him for sure. I won't find another him. But there are so many men out there and so many who evince an interest in me.
The last act I saw at TWC on Wednesday, that guy was very cute. When he went on stage he asked me what my name is and said he finds me very beautiful. He also made me laugh.
I can't remember his name. But if I keep hanging around I'm sure I'll meet him again.
Today when I left for Kismet I saw kitty.
A frantic Pa who couldn't find him called me and asked me to come back home. Then Ma scolded me for not returning home.
How can I leave a meeting just like that?
Kitty had snuck into my room when I opened it to leave. The window was open.
Thankfully, Pa found kitty on time.
I am hurt by Arun. Why does he bitch so much about me? I've made mistakes for sure. But so has he. And he has never apologised for it.
I think he has left me.
I won't spend more than an hour with him on Monday. I think I'll wear my white dress.
I am grateful for all the people in my life and all of life's experiences.
Love,
Me.
12.53 am
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