Esme Wang's book is a real eye-opener. It talks about the stigma that is a mental health diagnosis and her journey. It's really very well-written.
Acceptance is the key. Wang's book allows me to accept my own diagnosis. It's not Schizophrenia that everybody has told me but what it is nobody has. Dr E S had told me that if I quit smoking all the symptoms will go away. Nidhi said the same thing about two months back. I have never heard voices or anything but I have had capgram and been deluded.
That's kind of presumptive and I must accept that there is a problem.
I feel the lack of faith people have in me in general. Ma is always angry with me and dismissive of me. She has always been this way. But this is a common dynamic in a mother-daughter relationship.
A left me because of this.
This aspect of my life has shown me who my true friends are.
Both Ma and A have a habit of bitching. I'm sure Ma has poured her heart's plaints to all her friends and so has A to his.
I have many good qualities. My experiences have taught me to accept people wholly with their flaws. It's made me kind and compassionate and forgiving.
It's made me optimistically strong.
I love my brother and my parents who have stood by me through thick and thin.
Friends like Sa Li and Bda have emerged, never to leave my side. Both of them called me today to wish me.
Bda said he will come home in about two hours.
We choose our experiences through the karma we create. We create our own destiny. I am responsible for me and whatever happens to me.
I am strength. I am courage. I am happiness. I am joy. I am love. I am a ball of hope and nurturing. I win in each moment.
I am feeling:
Slightly desolate
Happy
Hopeful
Strong
Caring
Nurturing
Mystical
Pondering
Accomplished
Full of love
Optimistic
I am grateful for E Wang's book.
I am grateful for all the love in my life.
I am grateful that I pray. It's made me a far stronger human being.
I am grateful for my friends.
I am grateful for all of life's experiences. Each experience is beautiful.
I am grateful for all the people who feature in my life.
I am grateful that I love.
I am grateful for all my successes and all my victories.
Love,
Me.
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