It's Eshna's birthday today and it's also Shanky's. I love both of them absolutely.
I called up Sheshu in the morning. It was a brief call. I called up Shanky when Biswada was here.
I took Biswada to Silk Road. I still love A. I'll never stop loving him. With the little money I have I treated Biswada at Silk Road.
Shanky sent me money to buy booze so that I can get drunk on his birthday. Biswada took me to Princess Wines and I bought half a litre of port wine. I asked Ma if she'd like a drink and she declined.
I love Shanky. I really really do.
And I love A. I really really do.
Biswada told me while he was here that people have not been saying good things about me.
And I remembered: Those who are vilified the most are most honoured.
I love A. But he left me over what other people told him about me. I miss A.
I'm drunk on half a litre of wine sponsored by Shashank. I love Shashank. He still introduces me as the girlfriend if he were straight.
Biswada told me that people have been bitching about me and I in my drunken state remembered how Jesus was carried to the cross. How the Buddha was vilified. And I tell myself that love will win.
In my drunken state I can say I love Shanky, who always introduces me as the girlfriend if he were straight and A. I absolutely love A. I could fall at his feet.
I am drunk on half a litre of wine. I am no longer in my senses to study any French. But I know of love. Love is the way.
I am going to be remembered very well no matter what people say of me today.
I love A. I love Shanky. I love Sheshu.
I am feeling:
Drunk
Emotional
Full of love
Lovely
Love my best friend Shanky
Love A
Love my family
Will chant
I am grateful for all of life with all its experiences and all the people who feature In it.
I love Shanky. I love Eshna. I love A.
Love,
Me
6.53 pm
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