Describing my Mikki Shona my Shona Ma's Buddha Nature -- Buddha Ever Graceful Fire of the Nine Worlds Always Dwelling in Buddhahood (Buddha Egfotnwadib)

My mother has been my worst enemy in this life and my best teacher of life. I want to call her my friend but she has often told me that I'm no friend of hers which you could call cruel but it shows the force of her motherhood. It shows how much she identifies herself in other roles of life, compartmentalising her various life states, not necessarily always a Buddha but always graceful like a Buddha showing that her Buddha nature is just waiting to well forth.

So I would call my mother Buddha Ever Graceful Fire of the Nine Worlds Always Dwelling in Buddhahood.

She is a votary of the Lotus Sutra, a Boddhisattva of the Earth who has just in the recent past started dancing, but she would be against monastic life or living as such whereas I like shutting my eyes and looking inward watching my breath and have often felt like or entertained ideas of taking monastic life.

She is quick to criticise and wallow in other's flaws and crib and suffer thus, thus dwelling in the fires of hell sometimes, discerning as a Graceful Buddha.

She wants many material things (as do we all) and craves them and much of our circumstances is thanks to her deep desires and cravings, her warming of hunger as an ever Graceful Buddha.

Her rage is synonymous with her and she can be arrogant and dismissive and scathing in her judgments pointing out flaws as an ever Graceful Buddha.

She is quite of this world understanding human life states as a person who always sought to live in this world and no other and understands various desires in her own Graceful Buddha way.

She is compassionate and loves feeding people. Amongst her other heavenly pastimes is everything that goes under art and culture making her a Graceful and interesting Buddha.

She loves her sleep, and would always like to be left alone, chasing her dreams and her ambitions on her own, with a passion and hunger that are unique to her so that she can live a pleasurable life making her an ever Graceful Buddha.

She is always teaching and like I said is against meditative states or looking inward so she understands the skin really well, the surface really well not wanting to at least converse with me about the conundrums of intentions and desires, always trying to make a point, always saying something, learning to be patient and listen, always on the go Graceful Buddha making a sound everywhere.

She understands texts in her own unique way, the skin of the texts really attracts her and she is a learned Graceful Buddha.

She identifies today as a Boddhisattva of the Earth with her own unique wisdom of life and is quite aligned with her sangha. I feel she is not happy with what she has, at least I feel that I'm not the daughter she wanted; she has made me feel that way ever since I was small. We are similar but we are different. I look inward while she looks at the skin and the muscles, I delve into the world of ideas and thoughts that spurs me to create many things while she likes appreciating such creations at the skin level which makes her the best critic of my work and her opinion really matters to me, she an Ever Graceful Buddha.

Finally, my Mother Buddha Ever Graceful Fire of the Nine Worlds Always Dwelling in Buddhahood has a deep connection with my life's teacher Shakyamuni Buddha and the Lotus Sutra. She teaches me in her Buddha Nature to not escape the Fire of the Nine Worlds because that is where Buddhahood is and that is where life is, mired in the swamps of reality and being and I love her for that.