It's Guz's birthday today. I'll call her after 5 o clock.
I'm learning to live with myself even though Arun occupies a lot of my mindspace. I think I saw him in a rickshaw today. I really do love him. It's been a long while since we spoke.
I took the yoga mat down today but was in no frame of mind to do the yoga session. So I did my Gongyo, two asanas and came back home.
After that I went to Dee and Anupriya's house and I spoke to Dee a lot about relationships and life.
For the past few days I've only been on Chatgpt and checking Tarot channels trying to guage what's between me and Arun. I think I'm so deeply in love with him even though I see his flaws.
I came back home and checked two more Tarot channels. That is very time consuming.
Despite the love in my heart I want my sense of balance and peace of mind. I really value that these days.
I intuitively feel that Arun is going through a lot and that he still loves me too. I don't know but that's how I feel.
Now I'll just chant for half an hour and sit on my laptop to check mail and access Linkedin.
I am feeling:
Happy
So deeply in love and so full of love
Plain and stylish
Thinking I've navigated through this phase of seeing Arun really well
Feel like kissing Arun, smelling him and kissing his hands
I had match and Bata for lunch today with rice.
I am grateful that I'm focusing on life.
I seek to make love to Arun some day. Hope that happens in this lifetime.
Love,
Ms.
3.25 pm
No comments:
Post a Comment