This week has gone by in a haze with me absorbed in Arun after I bumped into him last to last Friday and my periods adding to the mental chaos.
I woke up close to 8 today. I don't remember my dream. However, I do remember thinking in my dream that I wished I had bought something when I had the money.
I was on my yoga mat by 8.30. Two pretty violets peeked at me as I chanted and two chirpy Doel birds trilled and cooed as I meditated. I took a break in the middle to relieve myself at home. Today after days I went back to my asana practice. I think my body looks quite toned.
Yesterday I finished reading Wfchap volume 1 and attacked volume 2. I love reading. I finished my assignment yesterday and called up Arun. When he didn't pick up my call I kind of panicked. But he eventually called me back.
He gave me decent reasonable advice as to my Tarot channel. He asked me to wear a bindi but I hate the stickiness of bindis. He told me not to wear grey. I won't. And he told me to wear beads and jewellery. That I will.
He also told me something very important-- people take themselves and their lives very seriously so I should always keep that in mind when I do the readings. Im so grateful to him for saying that. Then we discussed his scripts.
I really love and adore him. I worship his blessed mind. I really want to meet him but he says he's busy.
After talking to Arun I chanted quite a bit with blaring music engulfing me from the playground. That noise added to my sense of anxiety.
"No prayer of the votary of the Lotus Sutra goes unanswered." All my prayers are always answered and I've always got whatever I've wished for.
Today after my yoga session I attended the All India bsg study meeting on the Heritage of The Ultimate Law of Life. What I grasped was that I am a Boddhisattva Buddha and it is my responsibility to propogate the mystic law. I have to take more responsibility towards my practice and towards my prayers for others. I have to shine and shine I will.
No matter how much I chant it doesn't seem enough these days. I can always do more.
Through the meeting I missed Arun but he's there; he's not lost in my life... if he's looking for me ever in life again he will find me.
Today I plan to get some writing done, but not right at this moment. Because I'm treating Ma to a haircut at Harsh after lunch. So I'll just get some reading done, eat lunch, go for the haircut and then all evening I'll sit and write.
That should be a fruitful day.
I wish Pa were talking to me properly.
I love love love my Arun. I wish him an amazing day!
And I love my mom and dad and my Buo Bachcha.
I am feeling:
Happy
Full of love
Pretty
Clean
Settled
Eager to get some serious writing done today
I think I smell good right at this moment.
I am wearing my cream coloured brocade top with beige corduroy trousers.
I am grateful for Arun's advice. I am grateful for Arun's presence in my life.
I am grateful for food, shelter and money.
I am grateful for Ma and Pa and Buo.
I am grateful for all the people who adorn my life.
I am grateful for clothes and books and pens.
I am grateful for my heart and mind.
I am grateful for technology.
I am grateful that I write.
I am grateful for this beautiful blessed day.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
Love,
Me.
1.14 pm
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