I woke up from a dream where I saw Ma telling me that Mashi has sent something exotic for dinner. I woke up rather late oweing to the fact that I went to sleep rather late. A little after 7.40.
I proceeded to my chanting, meditation, asana, pranayam spot and put in two hours of solid yoga. I practised Ardha Pincha Mayurasana today. It was rather difficult. I have to keep at it for at least 4 months before I can proceed further.
The body is toned, lean, the mind sharp albeit I was slightly disturbed last evening, may be because of loneliness.
Dee came in at around 11.30. She and Ap have moved to Lokhandwala. She was all her chirpy self and spoke a lot. I hope to keep in touch with the two of them.
We studied Illnesses of the Mind and I realised that largely all my mental delusions are oweing to anger and arrogance. I must eradicate it completely from my life.
Mental illnesses are the functions of devils/our own delusions and illusions. I must eradicate jealousy, suspicion, anger, hatred, arrogance and ill will from my heart. I must.
During the meeting I kind of choked on water and just couldn't find my rhythm when it came to daimoku. I must better myself at group chanting.
I was a little low on energy till I had tea made by DuMa.
Yesterday I messaged Arun. I have to completely let go of him, I have to move on. It will happen gradually. I changed his name on my phone, removed our video from my favourites list in my Gallery. That video is now lost in the history of my phone.
I must not harbour too much on where he's at, what he thinks, etc. etc. I have to let go....
I tried modifying my prayers for him but I've got so used to praying in a certain manner for him and his family that it was difficult.
May he be at peace, may he be happy.
Yesterday both Pa Pa and De Jh called multiple times but I didn't pick up their calls. I think I'll call back De Jh this evening.
Even though I started late today I hope to put in some solid work today. I'm planning to write something on Medium too.
I'm wearing denims with my Cotton World animal print shirt.
I am feeling:
Breath heavy
Happy yet slightly morose
Calm
Placid
Eager to have a good day
I am grateful for the food I eat, the shelter I have, for the money I have.
I am grateful for my parents, my brother and Sadhya.
I am grateful for my friends.
I am grateful for Shakyamuni Buddha and Buddhism.
I am grateful for books and all the great writers I read.
I am grateful for yoga.
I am grateful for my blessed life and my blessed heart.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
I will put in ten minutes of daimoku now, some rhythmic chanting to get my pace and tone right.
I'm blessed that Ma is so sweet, so conscientious as is Pa.
To a good day!
Love,
Me.
1.37 pm
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