All day long I've been feeling so lustful and horny, not aggressively, but softly as if there were a snake sitting right there waiting to coil out and attack! Well, that's what lust feels like.
I finished the rest of my Tarot readings till Pisces and just wanted to relax and Sa So called. We chatted for about an hour. He spoke about proposing to his girlfriend.
All about me everybody seems to be settled.
It was only then that I realised that I have my period and I'm all so lonely so the feeling was legit. And just like that I snapped out of it.
Awareness is a great antidote to suffering.
"Those who know the why of everything can deal with almost any how."-- Viktor Frankl.
That is where Chat Gpt is so enlightening. It gives you the why of everything so easily.
I seek companionship with a compatible partner. Currently, Arun has set the benchmark for that. With him I realised what true connection was. He is also emotionally intelligent and mature and it was really nice, all the times I spent with him.
Well, I don't think Arun wants to be with me like that. If that were the case he would have shown it.
The loneliness sometimes gets deafening. On an odd day when a Ra Ti connects or a SaSo calls things smoothen out and I'm grateful for such times.
You need people to smile and laugh with, you need people to hold your hand and listen to you and you need to do likewise.
Life is an amazing wish-granting jewel. Looking back I've got everything I ever asked for. The people and things I rejected brought me pain but it was good because those things were not meant to stay.
I want Arun in my life, at least as a good friend. I want to see him grow old and I want to be a supportive friend to him. It's something I really desire.
I wasn't looking too good in the Tarot videos yesterday and today, may be because of my mood and the stress because of my period.
Now I'll chant, check my mail and go ahead and read further into Arun's written word.
May he be happy.
I am feeling:
Serious
Happy with a tinge of sombreness and sadness
Alone
In need of a companion
Not pretty at all
Was feeling lustful but I'm over it
Wish periods weren't such a painful thing
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
Love,
Me.
6.25 pm
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