Dear Anger,
Why do you visit me so often when I'm around Ma?
I think you visit me so often with Ma because she has hurt me a lot emotionally and physically growing up. She also lies a lot. She raises her voice and shouts and screams.
What is it that hurts me so deeply when she speaks harshly to me?
Her disrespect of me. Her dismissing me.
What are you trying to protect me from?
I think you are protecting me from becoming small and shattered.
What do you wish I would say or do when you arise?
I think I should journal when you arise.
What would help you feel heard without having to shout?
Writing.
And if you could tell me one thing about myself that I've been reluctant to acknowledge, what would it be?
That I am strong but diffident and I should get over my smallness.
What I want you to know is that I am listening to you. I don't want to suppress you, but I don't want you to exhaust me either. Help me stand up for myself without losing my peace.
With love,
Me.
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