This week I wont message Arun to take an appointment with him even though talking with him will make a huge diff. He said he will call on his own. Let me see if he will. If he does I'll be elated. If he doesnt it tells me that he doesnt care and that's another kind of outcome.
His tp girlfriend messaged me last night about some new venture that she is a part of. I deleted the message.
Today I slept till 1.30 in the afternoon. Ive been really sleeping a lot.
I then went to Metamorph. At 3 Tanya tried to cancel it and she again told me when I reached that I should reach sooner and i told her that thats not possible.
Arya said her English language paper went quite well.
Teachers are a mean lot. May be they are all frustrated that they are just teachers. Ruchita was horrible to Dhyaan today. And Ive seen it all my life, the purging of frustration by teachers on their loved ones.
My happiness should not depend on of Arun will call, or on how Im treated, or on how much money I have. I should try to be happy inspite of all that.
I went for the Dpm in the evening to AstAro's house. SeeDhi led the study beautifully. She emphasised on being humanistic.
She said a lot of things. She said you cant make khichdi and expect to eat biryani.
I love my mother even though growing up with her has been quite a challenge.
(I again feel my ears ringing and alert and my head full of thoughts...)
Also SeeDhi inspired me to chant to challenge my life conditions that limit me.
She spoke about Nmrk not being magic and about how all prayers get answered.
Tomorrow if time permits I'd like to visit the Apple Store.
And here is to spreading happiness and joy. Here is to better times. Here is to making the right choices difficult though they may be. Here is to a magical life. Here is to all the love, happiness and good fortune in my life.
I am feeling:
Happy
Alert
Acidity from the pani puri I ate
I bumped into Leena and Twi as I was coming back home.
I have decided to transform my financial karma with daimoku towards November 18.
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace, blessings and mercy on my life.
Love,
Me.
9.06 pm
