I just finished reading Nicole Vignola's Rewire. It's the longest I think I've taken to read a book.
I learnt so many things from her. The best book I've read by a neurobiologist after Robert Sapolsky's A Primate's Memoir-- truly eyeopening.
Today I reflected on the negativity bias. The brain tends to be pessimistic in all and focus on the negatives and ignore the positives.
And of course these days since Arun is my context for everything I thought about all the negative feelings I've felt since we broke up.
But to look at it positively he's there, rock solid, firm. He hasn't stopped talking to me like that.
And of course I love him. That's got to be a huge blessing. That I can still remember his smell and know some day I'll smell him again.
Well.
I had a few clients since morning. I might go out for lunch tomorrow with De Jh. Let's see.
Mashi said Pushpa 2 is shit and I didn't miss anything.
Now I want to start another book. But I should study and write! Well....
Love,
Me.
5.32 pm
Ps: After reading Nicole Vignola's book, I really feel like quitting smoking. It'll come with its downs. But in the long run it will come with umpteen more ups. Right from Ma to Arun they say I won't be able to do it. What is with the naysaying and discouragement! Of course I'll be able to do it... it's possible; so many have quit before me and I'll do it for sure.
Frankly, sometimes I'm feeling a little sad that Arun called me cheapy. That's what he thinks. He judges me. But I keep telling myself it's not the end of the world. He's been one for naysaying right from the start. He can be a tad discouraging but at the same time he is so loving and loveable so I can look past his flaws and be his friend.
7.32 pm
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