Ma came back from her trip with her friends and I was so happy to see her! Then she kept insisting that I abandon my work and join her to meet Mashi. I kept telling her I have a lot of work and finally I blew my top. She said that all she wanted was for me to join her.
Now how does one navigate such circumstances? If only she'd understand that when I have to work I can't really join her. May be I could have been more diplomatic. I need more wisdom. May be continuing to decline the offer is the only other way. Next time I'll do that. I really regret getting angry with her. I must not. My mother deserves all my love and far more respect.
I hope to understand my family and friends more and deal with them far more diplomatically and compassionately.
Things I have to do now:
Study, meditate, write and read one more chapter of James Allen, continue attending to Tarot clients.
I wonder how my Arun's days are going. I wish the line was far more clear yesterday when he had called and that we had completed our conversation.
I am feeling:
Slightly edgy
A little hardhearted as opposed to how loving I normally feel
Eager to evolve and change
Eager to work
Eager to have better relationships
Determined
Feel the paucity of a full-fledged yoga practice today
Eager to make the most of today and to end my day on a happy note
I am grateful for my family and friends.
I am grateful for Arun.
I am grateful for the money I have.
I am grateful for work.
I am grateful that things are falling into place.
I am grateful for the home I live in and the food I eat.
Complaining about other people and circumstances is not going to get me anywhere. I need to resolve problems, understand and be the change-- there is really no other way.
I love my mother from the bottom of my being and I worship her!
Love,
Me.
3.55 pm
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