I'm feeling fatigued and groggy. Must be all the thinking I did over the past week or may be it's a cold. I can't seem to stop yawning. I won't get any sleep and so much work needs to be done.
I ate breakfast at Bu's and they really wanted me to sit and watch Pushpa 2 with them.
(Someone just called)
Breaking up with Arun is not an easy feat. Earlier, everytime I've broken up I've moved on so quickly. But Arun is incomparable to the guys gone by. He's far sweeter and I didn't appreciate them the way I appreciate and love him.
But he's married. And it's so complicated.
And he's so cute.
I'm feeling a little bit gloomy like there's a huge force waiting to bring me down. But I just need to do what I have to do and then there'll be the party of life to partake of.
I've done a lot of acting workshops in my life and I've been thinking of doing one acting exercise each day. I should na? Let's see if time permits me today I will.
I'll go meet Mashi in the evening because Mesho is leaving.
Yesterday that P Fakir character told me that all will be well but I seem to be caged and that I am not free. I need clarity and guidance in my life; according to him, I need a guru. Well... now when people have to talk, they say a lot of things. To what should one give credence?
Today as I meditated I did the chakra exercises Bunty had taught me before he left for New Zealand.
I think I'm a spiritual person, a scientifically minded spiritual person. And I might as well accept it. After meeting Arun the last time and after he called me cheapy my spirits are damp. I'm feeling neglected.
He's not there, he's not there. Well....
All I can really do is prayer.
And all I can really do is hope.
Keeping my fingers crossed that things will unfold well on the personal front.
Love,
Me.
3.10 pm
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