Journal 14.5.2024 9.14 pm Tuesday

Dear Journal,

Today on reflection I realised that not a single thing comes to fruition without hard work.

Everytime I've worked hard I've succeeded and done exceedingly well.

After I quit Journalism in 2019 I wanted to take it easy. Often I havent worked hard thinking the work is too easy. But whenever I have, I've done well for myself and those are the silver linings I claim. 

The second thing is that everytime I've approached people and circumstances with a positive frame of mind I've invited opportunities into my life. That also goes for how I'm thinking about Arun. I must be positive. It's not like he's run away. He's pretty much there and that's such a blessing. I do love him a lot. And sometimes I feel overwhelmed in a good way. And then the trough. But why the trough? There should never be a trough! Professionally or personally.

The third realisation has been deeper. In the quest to get along and be happy we often lose our sight on the professionalism that is required to make the cut at a job. That professional image goes a long way.

We make friends at the workplace and lose sight of the real reason we are there. And not all workplace friendships are for a lifetime. So brain over heart is the mantra.

Additionally, Bodhi called today and suggested that I get on board with him and handle the communications for Uns. He sent me two presentations.

So tomorrow I will see the presentations and work hard at understanding them, be positive about the outlook and keep it strictly professional. That also goes for my relationship with people in the film industry -- be friendly, but mostly be professional.

I really wish tomorrow Arun and I have a great date and I can make him feel happy and loved. And I will work at our relationship, be positive about it (and stop bugging him with my whininess) and I'll respect him for as long, as long. And I wish at the end of it all he's happiest because I am indeed most grateful.

Also, Ma and Pa have stopped being angry with me and things are pleasant.

Damage control-- give space to all.

I've had a pretty good day.

Hope for the best!

Mantra: work hard, stay positive, and keep it professional.

Love,

Me.

I am grateful that I met some wonderful people today.

I am grateful that Bodhi called today.

I am grateful that I was happy today.

I am grateful that I ate yummy food today.

I am grateful for Ma and Pa and their unrelenting love and support.

I am grateful for Arun and all that comes with him. He's so sweetly mature that he makes me comfortable and he's such a baby sometimes.

I am grateful for chotto. He is my shweet little one.

I am grateful for Sadhya. I love her.

I am grateful for all the work in my life.

I am grateful for my beautiful home and room, and my comfortable bed.

I am grateful that I live in Aram Nagar.

I am grateful for all my neighbours.

I am grateful for love and all my loved ones.

I am grateful for my wonderful life.

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