Yesterday, I met Nidhi. It's really fruitful meeting her.
She told me that I'm feeling my 'stuckness' because I have not acknowledged things for what they are. She told me that if people have wronged me, I should acknowledge that and not be in denial. Hmmm. That's so tough.
She also told me that I have to get out of the house more because home is where all the problem lies. And at some point I should think of moving out.
Then Arun came to pick me up. And I had such a beautiful date with him. I love him so deeply.
My favourite part of the date was him showing me the pretty sea view at Band Stand twice as the car rolled towards it.
We then went to Madh to have sea food.
Yes, there was a lot of traffic. Bombay traffic can be quite bugging.
At some point I said something mean because he replied to a message by his wife.
And then his face fell and he looked a little sad. I did not like that. Why was he sad? He's such a sweet and cute humanbeing. I adore him so much.
The food at Madh was super delicious.
I wish Arun would tell me what bothers him. I'm sure he faces difficulties but he only talks about happy times in the past. I wish I could let him know that he can tell me anything. I would never judge him for it.
When we were homeward-bound I felt really drowsy and I lay my head on his lap. I love doing that. He is the most comforting person in my life.
I always feel a comfortable drowsiness with him.
I had a Pepsi before going home and all my drowsiness vanished.
I'll always cherish the little things with him. I'll always remember how he threw me a flying kiss yesterday through the window as his car went ahead after I got down from it.
I'll always remember his hands, his beautiful hands that I love holding.
I love him. I'm so grateful to him for having me as his girlfriend. And I can't see how long the road ahead is. That is why sometimes I feel anxious but usually when it comes to him I go with the flow.
He also told me three super long jokes. The length of the jokes was funny. And his cute expressions were adorable.
Nidhi also told me yesterday that I have to exercise in the open air more so I think I'll head down for a walk now.
Love,
Me.
I am grateful for Arun and all that comes with him. I am grateful for the wonderful time he gave me yesterday. I'm grateful for his sweet love and affections.
I am grateful for my family.
I am grateful for Nidhi.
I am grateful for the food I eat.
I am grateful that Simit read my handwriting so well.
I am grateful for Chotto.
I am grateful for my bed, my home and my lime green room.
I am grateful that I write.
I am grateful for the future.
I am grateful for my beautiful sleep.
I am grateful for this beautiful day ahead
8.18 am.
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