Journal 7.5.3024 3.45 pm Tuesday

Dear Journal,

Something has definitely happened to me. I'm in a state of inertia, stuck writing only poetry all day long and smoking cigarettes.

I've again made a schedule today but I'm far from following it. I wish there was a way to earn from all this poetry.

I have to, simply Have To, break out of this inertia.

Pa went to meet Sid and piu mashi today and he bumped into Achinto who called me up. I miss all my gay friends.

So I called up Shanky and my does he look good.

Arun's aunt is unwell. I don't think I always say the most appropriate thing. Much less with him. I feel so comfortable with him. He is my lean teddy bear. I think I'll message NJ and get on with my day.

Not a drop of yoga has been done this day this far.

I really love Arun. I've kind of been feeling a little negative. I hope I snap out of it today.

Love,

Me.

I am grateful that I woke up all hale and hearty today.

I am grateful that I woke up from a great dream.

I am grateful for Arun.

I'm grateful for Ma, Pa and Buro.

I am grateful that I ate mangoes today and yummy Pulao.

I am grateful that I spoke to Achinto today.

I am grateful that I spoke to Shanky today and that he looks so good.

I am grateful for my beautiful heart, mind, body and soul.

I am grateful for the blessings of my ancestors.

I am grateful for God's many blessings and grace in my life.

I am grateful for this Journal.

I am grateful that I'm getting ahead.

3.55 pm

Love,

Me.