Gazing

Have you ever soaked yourself

In boiling hot oil?

Have you ever felt the flames

Of love singeing and recoiled?

Have you ever seen red

Both of passion and wrath at once?

Have you ever felt amour so sweet

Through the cobbled path that bounced?

The path in Nether is so brambled,

The thorns hurt as you ramble

And as the grey clouds collect

One last time I am wet to reflect

At the shattered shards of my heart.

My head in the clouds

The sun does burn,

Through nightly dreams

I toss and turn.

And through the roads

Of dilly happenings no more

Can pain be deeper

Or the suffering more.

I hold a golden ball

Above my head,

Not a halo and not

One of deject

But a tiny sliver of hope

That yes, love does matter

And its feelings I can't reject.

I wish there was a reason

To be just as loving,

Just as sweet.

The pumping

Of the vast ocean of life,

Clears the drains

As I shut my eyes

And I am loathe

To listen to ten more lies.

Am I wronging so much

That I am sprawled?

Am I longing so much

That I ignore all doubts?

Must I let you swim all alone

Or not? I would drown

And roam the Nether worlds.

There again an angel I would meet

Who would show me your smile,

Your very neat teeth

And I'd still in my mind's deepest eye

Gaze into your soul

To fill the holes

Of all the bullets

That caused it to rain

On the bloody road

To Lover's Lane.

Let there be no more seeing red,

Let there only be looking ahead

For yes, this day I arrive at the goal

Of always gazing into your beautiful soul.