Talking about fantasies is such a private topic. Talking about dreams and hopes is such a secret thing. Even if I lay bare some dreams here many I will still guard in my heart allowing them the sun of my love till I can lay them bare.
My fantasies:
1. I have often fantasized about Arun when he is old, especially when we were going out. I've fantasized about taking care of him, loving him deeply even when he is very very old, Laying sweet kisses on him and providing every kind of comfort to him. I imagine him as a sweet old man who is happy to have my love.
2. I have fantasized about taking Arun out on expensive dates, and buying him choicest gifts and spoiling him. I even fantasize about that with my own family. I, of course, have bought them many gifts. I dream of spoiling them silly.
3. I dream of standing on a pulpit and making a speech with Ma, Buro and Pa there.
4. I once went to a past life regressionist who told me to progress into the future and I saw myself taking care of a sweet infant. That's the dream. I love children and I love babies.
5. I dream of sitting on a space ship and taking a space flight. Some day I want to sit on a space ship and take a glimpse of the far beyond.
6. And above all I dream of a prosperous healthy happy life with a lot of love where I'm making a difference to people's lives.
7. I fantasize about being free from the addiction of cigarettes.
Dimma always said that experience everything with dignity and in moderation.
The Buddha also espoused the importance of taking the middle ground. Too much of happiness can also plunge one into despondency.
I am feeling:
Happy
Placid
Calm
Love
Honoured
Beautiful (as a person)
Hopeful
Loved and loving
I am grateful for God's precious gifts in my life.
Love,
Me.
3.46 pm
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