Journal 11.10.2024 3.46 pm Keep at it

Dear Journal,

I went to sleep around 12 am last night and woke up around 8.30 this morning.

All my morning ablutions done, I wore the red and black kurta that Bdidi had given me.

I meant to finish the sheet for YI but I was feeling so sleepy and hungry that I got myself some Puri Bhaji.

I've been mulling sending Matt a voice message since day before. He has been so rude to me. But what has to be done has to be done.

I sat and read a bit. The weather has been hot and sunny.

Then Pa and I went to the Juhu pujo for bhog where I met Rita Chatterjee and Sujata Mitra. I greeted them.

I also saw Pablo but I didn't say Hi.

Somewhere within me the confidence has snagged.

I ate some bhog and came back home.

I read one chapter of THOTLS and shut my eyes for a bit.

Through the day today I was feeling a little negative. Then I told myself that it will all turn out very well. It will. All I have to do is keep at it and be positive.

I love my father. He is such a sweet, humble man. I adore him.

Pa tinkered around with the lunch boxes after we got back home.

Sometimes these days I am burdened with what people say about me behind my back.

But those who talk will talk. They talk about everyone. It matters what I am doing in the moment.

Now I'll sit and write and then finish the Excel sheet.

The day I'll give up smoking is near.

I am feeling:

Heavy

Headached

A little negative, mostly positive

Full of love

Happy

Eager

Focused

Slightly worried

Snagged

A voluminous heart

Inspired

Hopeful

Loving

Loved

I am grateful for the Bhog I ate today.

I am grateful for the books I read.

I am grateful for all my projects that are underway.

I am grateful for my wonderful parents. My sprightly Ma and my shona Pa.

I am grateful for all my work.

I am grateful for all the love in my life.

I am grateful for all I write.

I am grateful for being Destiny's child.

I am grateful for all my clothes, books and all my possessions.

I am grateful for all my friends.

I am grateful for all my experiences.

I am grateful for my beautiful hands and my lovely feet.

Love,

Me.

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