It's been over four months since I've seen Arun's face. It doesn't seem like he wants to see mine.
I get those messages on social media from guys wanting to chat, then some want to work and a few even end up soliciting sex for work.
It's so annoying! It's the most annoying thing I have to deal with and I really don't have time to waste talking to these men. I don't entertain all of them but some of them I do talk to.
It makes me ponder on their minds. Their time is wasted on such banal pursuits that they would not be good companions to talk to or even consider as friends since they lack the richness of heart and spirit to have a spirited conversation.
I miss my younger days when my guy and girl friends and me had interesting conversations that also of course dealt with our love lives but were so much more spirited and fun.
I find these days that I meet men who lack that kind of wealth of heart.
That is why I have always valued A so much. He is such an interesting conversationalist and has such a beautiful heart.
My studies as a Neurobiologist and of the Psychology books I have read have taught me that we replace sex with food and food with sex.
If you eat well, and all your meals on time then automatically you'll have a lesser perverse sexual appetite and a more rich love life. Eric Berne talks about it and so does Kandell.
So my advice to all the youth would be to pursue wealth, eat well and stay healthy and focus on developing the treasures of the heart and mind. Then life is so rich and meaningful.
Today I messaged Kar and told her that I just don't have the bandwidth to do her work. Also Nsji came home for over an hour and I spoke to Shi Gore, a nice Kannad man, about my play. He used to work with Girish Karnad when he was younger.
We have a meeting in a few days.
This Ga Sha keeps messaging to meet for work. Let's see. I don't quite trust him but then you never know. He doesn't give me very trustworthy vibes.
Va Per messaged and said he'll drop in for a bit tomorrow. It's good to have school friends to meet. They take you back in time so I'll make time for him.
I have a call today at night. Now after the day has been well spent I'll sit and do some chanting and write my novel.
Ma is down with pain in her pelvic region and is refusing a massage. Melon and Kit Kat are home and hovering around.
Life is good and I'm sure all is well.
I am feeling:
Full of love
Focused
Happy
Satisfied
Repentant about my tiffs with Ma
Sentimental
Sweet
Eager
Hopeful
I am grateful for my wonderful life with all its experiences and all the people who adorn it.
I am truly blessed and grateful to God for his infinite love, grace and blessings on my life.
Love,
Me.
7.20 am
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