Journal 7 30 pm on 22.10.2026 oh no

Dear Journal,

So Ive officially quit Metamorph and I feel fine except that I'll miss my students. Manit also called and said the laptop has some serious issue and he needs two more days with it.

I really want my laptop back! Four months without it has been a long time.

I need to send my resume to a director. I think I'll finally have to do that from my phone.

In the morning I woke up well after 11. I chanted for about an hour, had Biryani for lunch and spent quality time with Pa.

I think TAurad has been unjust with me. But I cant tell her that. Everywhere Ive worked people play politics and try to outshine the other.

Ive never done that. I stay away from gossiping. It's something that comes naturally to me. I know Arun gossips a lot at the workplace. But I dont.

TAurad said something about Tanya and Ruch complaining. Well I spent so much time with them! Why didnt they tell me?!

Im tired of the bitchy mindset! Ive outgrown it a long long long time ago....

I also read the Arts Division Book today. Nice... it's my second read through it.

I hope Manit has the wisdom to repair my laptop well. I really want my fully functioning laptop back. It's derailed much of my life.

I think tomorrow Ill use Pa's laptop for a bit.

1. Something I accomplished.

I spent quality time with Pa. Buro is on his way to Vietnam. He has decided to be cold with me! I as usual accomplished bringing about a balance in my relationships. I seriously prayed today. I read the Arts book. And I tidied my clothes.

2. Something I handled well.

My father! And this breakup with Metamorph.

3. Something I appreciate.

My family for supporting me no matter what and for never giving up on me. My Buddhist practice. Manit for working on my laptop. Duma's awesome Biryani. My friends.

4. Something I did towards my future self.

I bathed. I prayed. I followed up on my laptop. I read the Arts book. Ill work on my book tonight.

Ive somehow been seeing crowds of people in my dreams. I wonder what that means.

I think Ill go down for a bit of a walk.

I am feeling:

Happy

Loving

Future-geared

I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace, blessings and mercy on my life .

Love,

Me.

7.48 pm

Ps: I came back home after sitting with Twinkle, Leena and Marzoo about an hour ago. We decided to go to OnToes one of these days... hope it's fun.

My eyes have become like some Mother Teresa's eyes. Conpassionate and sexless. The face is the mirror of the mind and the eyes are the windows to the soul.

10 14 pm