Journal 7.30 pm on 20.10 2026 it's dassera.. Bijoya is tomorrow

Dear Journal,

I had a dream in the morning that I was a chinky girl like RegGur. And that I was surrounded by people. I dont remember much of my dream.

I woke up around 10.50 and called up Twi. She asked me to be in her house in half an hour for breakfast. 

She, Leena and I had lovely samosas, fafda and jalebi with chai. It was a good time.

Then I came home and chanted for an hour and had pulao with dal and torkari for lunch.

Then I again set to chanting.

I joined a Quit Smoking call where they quoted an exorbitant amount over 4 months.

Then Krao's assistant messaged that I could meet him today. I chanted for another half an hour, took Ma and went to meet Krao.

We waited at Krao's for over an hour.

Finally, I told Krao about my anxiety attacks, about how Ma and I fought yesterday, how I feel irritated when I read her prayers for me in her diary, how she prayed for me to quit Journalism, how she thinks she has a huge say in my life.

He asked to meet Ma and I went down for a cigarette. Ma told me that he asked her about her prayers and about the fight yesterday to which she said there was no fight.

Ma is truly incorrigible!

Im happy that Krao intervened. I dont think we are going out again today. In a bit I'll go and spend some time with Twi.

Oh yes! Arun is the only person I wished gor Dassera... he replied... cutie he is.

I think after talking to Twi Ill sit and write my book.

1. Something I accomplished today.

A lot of praying. Spending good time with Twi and Leena.

2. Something I handled well.

Spent good time with Twi and Leena in the morning. Chanted a lot. Was honest with Krao. Ive also stopped messaging Arun desperately.

3. Something I appreciated.

Breakfast with the Jani sisters. Time spent with family. A good lunch. Time with the Gohonzon. Krao's support and friendship.

4. Something I did for my future self.

Worked on relationships. Prayed. Wished Arun. Celebrated Dassera with Twi and Leena. I bought face serum today. Its making my skin glow. [I wrote 1100 words of my book: 10.28 pm]

I have to correct Arnav's paper.

I am feeling:

Itchy. I havent had a bath today.

Happy.

Grateful for Krao's support.

Grateful for food, shelter and money.

Happy that Arun messaged back.

I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace, blessings and mercy on my life. 

Love,

Me.

7.47 pm