Last night I spent time talking to Twi. I even arranged my cupboard to music. The evenings get quite cool even though there is no sign of the monsoons. At night I meditated. That is why may be I fell asleep easily.
I woke up at 7.51 today. I had my lemon juice, chanted, meditated, did yoga. It's discipline I'm cultivating.
I had sabu dana Khichdi for breakfast. Nobody quite makes sabu dana khichdi the way they made it in JNS.
I've had 6 cigarettes so far. I spoke to Shou who was upset with me and A Alam who was also upset but slightly more positive and genial.
I spent time researching topics. My mind drifted to Arun. I did quite love him deeply. May be I still do. But his wife and his many other women and his comparisons were too much. All these memories came flooding back because of some Gallery memories on my phone.
I read Daisaku Ikeda who really uplifts my spirits. Never lose courage. Always harbour hope. Be grateful. These are all newage mantras that take one a long way.
Buro and Sadhya came home. They got kulfi along with them. The kulfi was truly yum.
I got a call from a casting director for a series. This is just one call of many.
Plus tomorrow I start working.
No one quite knows what the future brings with it. I must abandon complaining and the megalomania that hits me sometimes that must be discarded.
I even spent some time listening to music-- all the songs I heard with Arun. I wonder how he is.
Now I'll chant and work on my novel.
I am feeling:
A cool breeze
Happy
Stable
Slightly sticky from sweat
A soft feeling of love in my heart
I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.
I am grateful for Arun, Ma, Pa, Buo, Sadhya and all the lovely friendships I have in life.
I am grateful for work and money.
I am grateful for food, shelter, clothes and everything that makes my life wonderful.
I am grateful that I got a call from Sunny the casting director. It shows somewhere someone has spotted me. Before time something should click.
I am grateful for fruits.
I am grateful for the kulfi I just had.
Love,
Me.
5.13 pm
No comments:
Post a Comment