Journal 9.48 pm 18.6.2026 a stand up comedy

Dear Journal,

I woke up at 6.51 today but did not chant till 7.30. Instead I spent some time with Ma in the morning. Then, of course, I chanted, meditated and did yoga.

I wore my cotton world sky blue and yellow striped kurta with denims. I had a super boring day at work. Work was so slow and there was so much work! I have a class tomorrow.

I came home so tired and edgy. AfShe doesnt talk that much. And he barely smiles and I've never heard him laugh. So boring.

I came home and had fish curry rice and bathed. Then me and Ma went for a stand up comic show. The show went on for an hour and a half. The first few acts were very boring and full of sex jokes but the ending acts were amazing! The last guy was kind of bald and kind of cute.

I taught Madhu how to clean my room today. She even made the bed so well that I feel like lying down and relaxing.

Now i'll chant and eat dinner and then go to sleep.

It's 9.55.

I am feeling:

Happy but slightly heart heavy

Clean from my bath

I'm wearing my new red dress.

Pretty

Ma bought litchis on the way back home.

When will my kadka days get over?

I had such a headache today from the boredom it wasn't even funny.

A guy kind of started talking to me in the bus. He wanted my number. I somehow turned him away.

I've had 3 colas today.

A good laugh is a mood uplifter!

That reminds me I can start doing my laughter exercises again. May be that will uplift my mood.

I am grateful for God's infinite love, Grace and blessings on my life.

I am grateful for the show I went for with Ma today. I had a good laugh towards the end.

I am grateful for food, shelter, work and money. 

I am grateful for clothes and my bath.

I am grateful for friends and family and relationships of mutual love, trust and respect.

I am grateful for the internet. It's 10 exactly now.

I am grateful for my phone and laptop.

I am grateful I have a job. Lowpaying but nevertheless it's there.

I spoke to DeJh today.

Love,

Me.

10.03 pm

Ps: last night i saw a dream where Arun is talking to me then I kiss him on his cheek... then i woke up.

10.51 pm