Journal 7.00 pm ist 5.6.2026 self belief goes a long way

Dear Journal,

The electricity bill is so high this month! Whenever a job turns up I intend to contribute to household expenses. I must and I will!

I smoked 5 cigarettes today and drank oodles of tea.

Self belief goes a long way! And even a tiny sliver of hope is enough to tide one through choppy waters. And the most important thing is to be realistic. And loving. And kind.

There is enough trouble in the world. One kind word could make all the difference.

My mind was not really into the job search today. I was tired from yoga and walking in the morning and delaying that first cigarette made me feel a little fogged.

Despite that I job-hunted till lunchtime. 

I ate rice with dal, a carrot bean veggie, jhinge posto and aloo fry. It was all so yum.

Then I read a few short stories, O Henry's Gift of the Magi being a repeat. I started reading Hellen Keller's autobiography, completing 5 chapters. I read Daisaku Ikeda. I worked on my novel. I chanted and prayed.  Then I headed out for a long sweaty evening walk with all the filmy crowd lining the streets.

I came home to sunset. Ma and I had a slight riff raff over whether the lights should be switched on.

I settled with Hellen Keller's autobiography again.

I even perused William Strunck a bit.

Yesterday I started watching a Netflix series called Single Papa. I'll watch the second episode now.

The days seem effortless and easy.

Sometimes the brain is overstimulated and alert but it's all good.

Ma is in much better health. She is looking so pretty as she is headed out. She has worn her green pants with a black kurta. Pretty mom.

Melon has just come back from his evening walk. Kit's nails have been clipped and his scratches are painless at the moment.

A hot cup of chicken soup awaits me.

I am feeling:

Loving

Kind

Sobre

Clear-minded

Smelling good

Focused

I am grateful for God's infinite Love, Grace and blessings on my life.

I am grateful for loving relationships. I am grateful for Melon and Kit.

I am grateful for my daily sustenance of food and beverages. I am grateful for shelter.

I am grateful for money and work. I cracked one interview but the job is tentative. The search goes on.

I am grateful for clothes.

I am grateful for oil.

I am grateful for yoga and exercise.

I am grateful for books.

I am grateful for Linkedin.

I am grateful for my laptop and wifi.

I am grateful for my phone.

Love,

Me.

7.19 pm