I miss you so. It's been well over 25 years since I lost you and I really miss your company.
You are definitely the most beautiful woman I've ever laid my eyes on.
You would be so pained to see me today.
Where are you? Have you been reborn in a Buddha land? I pray for you unflinchingly each day that wherever you may be you'll only encounter favourable circumstances.
I've been struggling Dimma. I've had my fair share of grappling with anxiety, delusions and depression. This year I sent mass messages to my friends in a fit of delusion. I've suffered quite a bit you know shona. And I'm trying. I'm trying really hard.
I've been earning money on the side reading Tarot and currently I'm looking for a job. I want to work as a soft skills trainer. That would be so nice! To encourage and give hope to the youth!
You know Dimma I have no one to really talk to these days. I think of you less often these days but each day I pray for you.
I've painted some wonderful works of art. I wish I could show them to you. I think I'll gift my paintings to my friends. On days of love we mark together to give a solemn gift of a poem and a painting would be so nice!
I miss Dadu too. Dadu's pragmatism, his unflinching support and love.
I have hope Dimma. And I am determined to give life my best shot.
I'm currently working on a novel and I am in tears today thinking about you. I love you my mishti doi Deemom.
I miss counting your greys.
For all the specialness and ghamand I had these days I feel quite the ordinary. Nothing extraordinary. And there is virtue in that.
I still havent found someone to love who would love me back. I'm not searching.
On a fresh bright dewey morning I know the person will appear.
Right now I'm a little pained, a little hurt, a little sniffling. And I wish I could hold your hands in mine and kiss your blessed hands.
I worked for 12 days back to back non-stop. Today I'm taking it easy.
I want to spend time writing my novel today.
How are you Dimma? I trust you are well and happy wherever you may be. The world has changed a lot since I was small when I nestled in your bosom. The life lessons you have taught me hold me in good stead.
Now I'll get on with my day.
Love,
Buri.
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