I woke up around 5.41 am ist today feeling distinctly cheated ste. Last to last night I had a dream where I saw Van's father and he was confused whether he should play Mikki Shona.
Today I feel less love in my heart. Because I distinctly feel cheated upon.
Yesterday I tried to curb my smoking. I did not chant till 8 pm ist. Instead in the afternoon I wrote something. Then I listened to music.
Pa got me the extra strong navratna oil. I really want my eyesight back and I want work.
Then in the evening I went down for a walk and I did not smoke.
At night I sent Q the play. Then I had two cigarettes. Then I dosed after blog chatting for a while.
Things cant be forced. When you force someone he/she is likely to run away.
Arun left me just like that. He doesnt talk to me. I might as well see things for what they are.
I want work.
I am grateful for Mother Nature's infinite love, grace and blessings on my life.
I have applied besan and curd on my face and a fly is hovering about.
I am feeling:
Loveless
Happy
Calm
Collected
6.26 am ist
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